'Void'

To gradually chip away at something you make it weaker and less likely to succeed by repeated efforts..

Completed in August of 2021, this was the first painting I created out of expression.

Before this, I had only painted what I thought would look aesthetically pleasing. Whilst that’s still what art is about, ‘Void’ was eye-opening for me. Forgive the pun.

I actually had a completely different idea for what I wanted to create when I started this piece. I was trying a different style but it still started from aesthetics. And as I continued painting, it just didn’t feel right.

I didn’t know this at the time but it wasn’t telling the right story.

So, I sat down and sketched a new plan. And without even realising, I was expressing how I was feeling at the time.

Looking back, I sense this piece had something to do with my parent’s divorce, my father leaving, and being forced out of our house, all within a couple of years. Amongst this, I was juggling finishing my A-levels and moving into University through the Covid-19 pandemic.

Now, when I look at this piece, I feel that my emotions were drained. My identity was vanishing. My energy was dissipating.

And all I could do was watch.